Halfway Home?

My clinic was closed for the July 4 holiday last week and subsequently, I have not been weighed in almost two weeks. This has me slightly intrigued with the pound loss results when I go to the clinic in two days. I only lost 2 lbs. at my last visit and I am hoping for something a little more substantial. I don't think I'll be disappointed -- I have that "feeling" I've shed some weight. I'm trying to get to my half-way point and that means eight pounds to go. I hope I'm close.

I start thinking about the weigh-ins about two days before they occur. Although I've tried not to let that scale dominate my thoughts, it does start to have a prominent place in my thinking as I near weigh-in day. I'm particularly tense right now because I want so much to hit 200 lbs -- that will mean I have only 40 lbs. to go. Halfway Home. Oh, how much I want to be there!

My last weigh-in registered 208 lbs. I've been on product for 3 1/2 months and if I hit 200, I can estimate (roughly) that I'll be into maintenance in November. It will have been a long road to hoe, but I can say in no uncertain terms that it will have been worth it.

Now, I need to be very careful here. If I let my weight loss hopes get too high, I tend to be quite disappointed if things don't turn out the way I expected. I've learned from many, many weigh-ins that my results can be all over the map. This is why I do dislike scales so, as I've mentioned in previous posts. They affect my mood and I really don't like that. But face them I must, because the numbers keep me motivated. The clinic told me I need to purchase my own scale when I move into transition. That is something I am not looking forward to.

So I'll try to keep myself occupied for now and try not to dwell on Wednesday. It's hard. But I'll try.