The Slippery Slope: Am I Headed For A Relapse?

As you know, I had a clinic-approved meal out when I was on my vacation earlier this month. No, I did not gain any weight and actually lost my regular amount. Ketosis remained intact. However, a problem of sorts has cropped up. Since this meal, I have found when my husband brings his take-out dinners home, I cannot stop watching him eat, and craving a bite of his food. Because I have been restricting his diet to lo-cal dishes and cut down his carbs, he indulges on these nights with hamburgers or pizza or Asian food. All a big time no-no for me.

Bless his heart, he has asked me not to torture myself and encouraged me to leave the room and he will call me when he is done. But I become so engrossed in his food that it's hard to break away. I did manage to go upstairs this week and change the sheets on the bed. That got my mind off of it. But I'm flustered because I never really had this reoccurring problem before. Did I shoot myself in the foot by eating out in the first place? Is this why I am struggling and facing a threat of a relapse?

At this juncture, I will congratulate those who have been true to the fast and strongly encourage them to stick with it. For me, putting food in my mouth has apparently opened up a Pandora's Box full of head games. And I really don't like it. For those who have cheated or had a clinic-approved meal like me, I wonder if you are having the same problem that I am. My commitment to the full fast is being tested. I honestly didn't expect this.

Now, I can be a tough cookie, and I've been on this program for over five months. I still have a ways to go, but I've got the routine down pat and I like it. So I think I can overcome this problem and hopefully it will be temporary. But I guess the lesson I am taking away from this is don't take compliance for granted and take care with that "first bite." It could very well bite you back!